it finally happen..

Something i dread finally happen..

i open my hand to carry Ryan.. he didnt want me.. he wanted her instead.. break my heart..

He wanked when i carried him over.. she toook him back. i was so upset.. felt really bad..

she see him every day more than me.. she bath him and play with him more than me.. i dun blame him.. but myself.. felt my heart break into thousand and million pieces... what is worse.. everytime i spend my time with him, she also want to be involve.. when she is mopping the floor and me in the room playing with him, she will call him.. when he is in the car, she will try to play peek a boo behind with him and get his attention... when he is in my arms, she will call out to him to wave at him hello.. sigh... when in the lift, she repeat what i say to him.. who is the mother...i think too much.. but what can i do.. i need to work... how i wish i can take care of him myself...

will try not to think abt it.. back to work..