Going back to work on Monday...argh..

Oh no.. Monday going back to work..

For almost 2 weeks i have on medical leave and hv been resting at home.. been reading books on baby, msn with my sister and helping my sister look for her massage lady, read up on cord blood banking but not decide which cord blood bank to go to yet... most noon, nap a while with my little cousin and helping her with some of her home work... it was a break for me... i needed it after being stress at my work place.. hving no motivation with work and also i feel sick with the pple in the office... okok.. enough of complaining... I need to find the zest to go back to work... hee.. today, i didnt dare to nap coz i really worry how am i going to work next week.. wat if i feel like napping at noon!!! haha...

ok now going to bath and wait for my hubby come back and read story to bb goh.. :)

Doc visit again..

Yesterday noon at abt 3+, i went to the toilet and realise i have brown discharge.. was slightly worried.. called the clinic and since it is not red discharge, they ask me to monitor the situation.. if worsen then call again..

This morning at abt 10+ i see some discharge again.. so i called the clinic to ask for advice again.. this time the nurse ask me to go to the clinic and they will give me another injection to stable bb again..

I dare not walk to Mount E although it is near my office (abt 10 mins walk).... didnt want to put bb at risk again.. so i took a cab there.. at the clinic i didnt have to wait long.. told the doc abt the discharge then as usual he ask the nurse to prepare me for ultra sound to see how is baby.. well baby is active and he also check my placenta.. since everything is ok, he then told the nurse to do a infection test to check if i am having infection..

Results show that i have infection and that might be the cause of the discharge.. so he give me medication for the infection and also give me a hormones injection to stable baby.. well i will be on mc from today till friday to have a good rest..

Oh well i am now going to take my nap in such a nice cool weather.. hee..

Sorry my Love..

Went to see my gynea for check up on Friday... My little love is growing well according to the gynea.. everytime i see the little one making small movement and hearing the heartbeat, bring a little smile to my face...I felt such a relief that my baby is fine... :) I asked the doc if i can swim and he has give me the green light..

I was a bit disappointed that my hubby can't make it for the check up this time.. hopefully he can get more involve in seeing our little love grow... I recently make more effort to listen to more classical and soothing music at night... they say listening to will help calm the baby and will help both mummy and baby sleep better.. oh and my hubby trying to play a part also start reading short stories to our little love.. :) we got to thanks Hannah for the contribution to the story books..

I guess i shld write abt how i feel this past week so that i can remind myself to put my love in highest prority... The past week at home, i cried secretly... i have been feeling very guilty for putting my pregnancy at risk... the 2 weeks before the little hiccups, i have been working quite late for abt 3-4 days a week and most of the time i work till 10-11pm... I guess if i have not work so hard, i would not have put my little love at risk...

Someone at work, commented during the early stage of my pregnancy that i look very pale and always look tired.. i dun deny that i feel tired some time coz i have not been getting good sleep at night as i tend to wake up everyday at abt 4 or 5 am and it take some time for me to get back to sleep... but i do not wish my pregnancy to affect my work performance.. I dun like the feeling that pple think that me being pregnant become useless and cant perform as well as i use to be... so to prove myself, i work like usual and stayed late at work when required.. However as our company has new requirement due to the sale to china, our closing deadline has become shorter and more work has to be done.. so this month i guess i push myself a little too hard and i really regreted...

Well I will be back to work on Monday... I promise myself that i will not push myself too hard and if i cant cope, i will report up and get others to help... I have been napping everyday this week... hee... not sure if i will doze off during work next week.. haha..

Rest, rest and more rest...

This week i am suppose to rest and stay at home... kind of relaxing but sometime bored... Wat I did this week.. Every morning my dear hubby will drive me to my mummy's place so that there will be someone taking care of my meals and if anything happen to me, someone is around.. So as usual, i wake up at 6.30 am and get ready to go to my mummy's place..

At my mummy place, i will eat my breakfast with my family... then prepare my cousin to go to school.. she will beg me to send her to school every morning.. but coz i am not allowed to walk much, i got to reject her every morning..

After she go to school, i will read the papers or books on preganancy.. then on the computer and disturb my sister work by chatting with her on msn.. hhaha.. not only my sister but some close friends too... I will also surf the motherhood forum and read and find out abt other ladies experience on pregnancy and motherhood...

In the afternoon after lunch, i will spend some time playing with my cousin or teach her homework.. then abt 2-3 pm, i will sleep with her.. hee.. then when i wake up i will join my mum watching dvd.. hehe..

Then follow up by eating dinner and then watch tv.. haha..

That is how i spend most of my 5 days here... hehe.. kind of relaxing but next week when i am back at work, i dunno how i can past thru the days without nap!! haha..

Tomorrow going to see my little love again.. cant wait.. :)

My little love...

This post is late for three months.. it is kind of a long post so bear with me..

I have an announcement that i feel like shouting to the whole world to show how excited I am.. "We are going to be parents!!"

Everyone close to me knows that me and hubby adore kids.. But because we wanted some time on our own, we plan to start our project B after one year of marriage.. oh well we didn't start after one year cause i wanted to go some where for our second honeymoon since i won the $2k travel voucher during the D&D last year.. We started to let natural take it course during the trip.. Well this little life is not made in Korea.. haha.. but i am still very happy to welcome this little life..

Going thru how i find out abt my pregnancy and the 2 mths plus after that..

10 May 2008
Having a bad stomach cramp.. tot that my mense is coming.. I slept quite abit during the day. later, hubby arrange to meet my sister in law for dinner at CCK.. was throwing my temper for a long wait for his brother coz i was kind of hungry.. Opps.. is this the first sign? haha..

11 May 2008
Decided to buy the pregnancy kit coz i wasn't sure that cramp was a PMS sign.. coz i never had this kind of cramps before..

12 May 2008
Early in the morning, I tested and show a positive line!! Hubby was smiling when he saw the sign.. I know he is happy.. Oh.. in the morning, after he drop me near my office, he called his sister to tell her the news.. haha.. he was actually asking her to convince me to see a gynea to confirm.. haha.. i know he is anxious but it is my reporting deadline this 2 days and i promise him to go on Wed..

13 May 2008
Was having a bad cramp again.. and i couldn't sleep well the last night.. in the morning, when i go to work, the cramp was still there.. I work till abt 9+ then i tell my colleague abt the cramp.. she and my sister urge me to visit a gynea... Called my sister in law to arrange to got to the gynea clinic at Mount E (Dr Alex Ooi) coz her friend is working there...

I walked there and realise that the cramp was better but since i was there might as well determine if I'm really pregnant. Hearing it from a doctor/nurse is always better than your own self deduction... it didnt turn out to a good visit.. coz we did the scan and cant see the baby.. instead, the doc saw some excess fluid outside the uterus.. he is worried abt hving ectopic pregnancy... He suggested to do a urine test again to confirm that i was pregnant.. The test show a faint line.. he confirm that i was in the early stage of my pregnancy. The nurse told me to be careful. Doc give me folid acid and some supplements.. was schedule to see him in 2 weeks time.. in the mean time. i try to keep myself positive and not to think abt the risk of hving ectopic pregnancy..

27 May 2008
My sister kind of sense my fear.. so she took half day to go to the check up with me.. my dearest hubby cant excuse himself from reservist cause they are hving out field training.. oh well was anxious for the check up.. haha.. I was joking to my sister.. with her going to the clinic with me everyone will think i am going check up with her instead.. haha..

We were late coz there are no bus.. we waited quite a while for my turn at the clinic.. doc was asking how i was feeling since the last visit.. then the scan.. I was kind of worried.. but it didn't last long.. doc located the sac and showed a small figure and pumping heart! He on the volume of the scanning machine and i could hear the heartbeat!! oh.. I was kind of touched and relief.. haha.. doc confirm that i was 6 weeks preg and bb will be due on 20 Jan 2009!! still a little mouse.. hehe..

Called hubby right after we were out from Mount E and told him my encounter with the little life inside me.. He was excited and disappointed he cant come with me..

The next few weeks, morning sickness sink in.. was feeling very nausea and vomited a few time.. hoping and praying that this will past quickly.

18 June 2008
Went for my visit to the gynea again.. this time is hubby's first trip to the gynea with me.. visit was normal.. bb is still small.. but doctor say the development is on schedule.. this time is dear's first encounter with the little life.. and i saw him smile when he heard the baby heart beat..

I went shopping alone after the visit coz he need to go back to work.. I was feeling lonely and kind of blame him for always leaving me alone... Sigh.. sometime i wonder if i am too independent that he dun bother much abt my feelings and needs.. even in such time, i still feel that he is not involve much in my pregnancy...

10 July 2008
Today in the afternoon i was feeling some crampy feeling in the afternoon when i went for lunch.. but didnt pay much attention coz i felt it might be just that my womb is expanding for baby growth. Just before i went home, i went to the toilet and i saw some blood.. thought it might be just some slight spotting so i tot i go home and monitor first... When i was on the bus, it was quite pack so i didnt get a seat.. i was standing and i felt more and more discomfort and was breaking into cold sweat.. then i felt that i seems to be bleeding.. like mense flow.. when the bus was near my mum's place i got a seat and i found that my pants was slightly wet with blood.. i panic.. i called my gynea and told him what happen and he ask to go to the hospital and prepare to be warded..

I went to my mum's place, change and waited for my parents to be ready. They are sending me to the hospital.. At the hospital, there was no bed!! I waited in the A&E and seems to me that no one is attending to me and i was worried abt my baby... Went to complain to the nurse!! They got me a bed to lie down and explain that they got me a bed and my gynea has instructed them to give me an injection to stablise the baby..

Soon i was injected and pushed to the ward.. stayed one night and i am not suppose to get out of bed... first thing in the morning, my gynea send his nurse to pick me frm the ward to his clinic.. he did and ultra sound for my little love and baby is fine.. now i am suppose rest and stay at home for a week plus.. back to work only on the 21 July.. Tomorrow i will be going for NT scan and my gynea ask me to visit him again as he wan to give me another jab for stablising baby just to be doubly sure.. Shall update again..

11 July 2008
Went for my NT scan... baby is fine.. Saw the little hands, legs, ears and spine and saw him sucking his thumb!! hee.. I was happy to see baby so active.. when the sonographer tab on my tummy to ask baby to move, it really turn itself.. hee... was relieve to see baby so active... i told the sonographer that i just bleed on thur.. she help me check on my placenta and she say everything seems fine.. :)

After the scan, i went back to my gynea and was given a jab again... hope that baby will be stable... :)