Missing time for myself.. but enjoying every moment with him..

I am still on my maternity leave and i am enjoying every moment with Ryan.. Ryan has not been an easy baby.. he is not easy to pacify and sometime he only want me to pacify him... and with his strong hands and legs, he figit alot.. and sometime when he cry and my sister help me to pacify him, he will not calm down.. only when i carry him, he will clam down slighty but sometime he also wont calm down.. but as a mum, i guess no matter how, we need to be more patient with him.. I dunno if he will be stress when i go back to work.. i guess i have to slowly let go and let my mum and maid handle him.. hopefully he will stick to my mum more than the maid..

As a mum, some sacrify hv to be make..

Sleep
The most common words from a mum is they are sleep deprive.. But Ryan dote me alot i guess.. Before Ryan was 6 weeks old, he only wake up 1 time a night at abt 3+ to ask for milk.. After 6 weeks, he dun wake up at night already.. normally after his last feed at 9 or 10 pm, he can normally last thru the night and wake up at 4 or 5 am.. Nowadays, i dun wake up to pump milk anymore i need to get use to it if not when I go back to work, i dun think i can wake up and pump.. I need to rest well to be able to work..

Out of shape
During pregnancy, i gain 12kg and till now i still have 3kg to shed.. however no matter how much i shed, my hip has expand and i dun think it will go back to what it used to be.. sob.. i will need to go shopping for clothes as i cant fit into some of the clothes..

No time for myself
As Ryan is quite sticky to me now and i enjoy that.. but sometime it get difficult to hv a quick bath and a meal.. must faster eat and faster bath.. and i cant enjoy a good scrub or take my time to eat my meals like I used to. at time i still can when chris help out or when i leave Ryan to the maid... Now as i am usually at my mum place till night, i will make sure i bath and hv my meals then i will go home.. then i can take my time to settle Ryan then go do my packing for next day and tidy up the house a little then i'll go rest..